had a long night last night... went for service, and because of what pastor jeff said and with the thoughts running through my mind, i broke down in church after service=((( it was really very disheartening at that time, and i just could not control my tears, and i just broke down. after service, i had dinner w my sim cg, before going to meet desmond and my 2 angels. timbre was really good; whereby the night at plasma was simply shiok and booze was good! =) after plasma, we went to chinatown to eat the famous porridge, which was really good too! mixed (assorted pig stuff) porridge was delicious! =) after that, chilled till about 6+am then went home...

i really hope that i can do it. and i know that i got to do it. or else, the one to suffer in the end is only myself. it will be very hard. it will be torturing for me. it will be a big obstacle to overcome. and i also do not understand why i can't seem to do it. probably i can't bear to do so.

god, save me.

 

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