potato signing off 1:18 am

tomorrow is bedok view sec 2 camp... hope it will be a good camp, given that there are so many new instructors =(((

p.s. will update serangoon sec camp and hope church camp when i'm back =)

 

potato signing off 12:41 am

today was pcb for serangoon sec camp happening on 14-16May. it was held at starbucks suntec city, which is a very nice place to chill and have coffee at the same time. i'm mirroring maiosia aka mayo prawn. haha! =) she really looks like mun ting la! but is mini version de. after pcb, went to the arcade to play the candy machine again, but this time, i never play, andrew play only. he won a pooh bear hugging a honey jug. after playing, went to food court to eat curry chicken with rice (supposedly to be very good and tasty as said by andrew), which was really nice =) after dinner, went to donut factory and buy a box of donuts for my mum for mother's day and cabbed home with andrew.

hey mum! i know you definitely will not see this post, but just wanna say that i really love you a lot. there is really nobody that can replace your position in my heart. not forgetting the times you were there looking after me when i was sick. always there to lend a listening ear when i need someone. the love that you exhibit towards me is immeasurable and i assure you that the love will definitely be reciprocated. with regards to the promise i made with you that i will fulfil by 1st june, i will do it. have a little faith in me that i can do it! anyway, happy mother's day to you! although to me, everyday is mother's day=)))

the distance is getting wider, and i can feel it myself too.

i really miss my fmss 2h'08 campers, can't wait for 5th july to come! =)

 

potato signing off 12:33 am

just reached home. went for service, preaching about "honoring our parents". after that, went to ah ma's place for a mother's day celebration. then went to meet the instructors at timbre; whereby after that, we went to kbox cineleisure to sing ktv from 1-6am! haha! it was fun! =) looking forward to wed's serangoon sec camp~

i still miss my fmss 2h'08.
can't wait for 5th july to come...

=)

 

potato signing off 7:25 am

 

potato signing off 11:09 am

today was a nice day... met you for lunch and coffee =) lunch at yum cha dim sum restaurant was nice~ seeing you in the super-full expression on your face just makes me lol! haha! especially you had a pau before we step into yum cha. hahaha! lunch was really full and satisfying=) after lunch, as you are super lazy and tired to walk, we managed to chance upon this cosy cafe called tiffin club at jiak chuan road. it's a very small cafe, but the ambience and atmosphere is perfect for chilling out and nua-ing! haha! had a nice chit-chat(not really chit-chat cos someone was sleeping for quite a while.. oops! haha!) i had a nice cup of iced latte while you had a nice cup of hot choc. overall, lunch and coffee was really good, and i'm enjoying your company more and more le.. =)))

went office for pcb for fairfield methodist sec 2 camp. out of the 18 instructors doing the camp, 11 are new and 1st-time instructors. i'm really looking forward to tomorrow's camp and very excited for the camp too! cos it will be my 1st comeback since acs barker camp in jan. 4 months of essence, ready to explode tomorrow! haha! fairfield oei!~~~

take care of yourself at kota tinggi. i will always keep you in my prayers. and see you at church on sat den! =)))))

 

potato signing off 12:43 am

today is really a very nua day for me... woke up at 2pm, had fried mee tai mak for lunch, then went off to beach road army market to change the salomon shoes with my mum. cos apparently size 8.5 is a bit too small for me, so i went to change to size 9. luckily, the auntie at the shop was really friendly and allowed me to change, despite not having the receipt and cutting off the shoe tag, she still allowed me to change. she even said the tag and receipt are not important, most important is to make sure the shoe is comfortable and is authentic can le... the auntie is like super nice la! next time sure patronize her shop again=)))

now is 8.01pm... feelin very lethargic and should be hitting the sack very soon. my mind is filled with so many thoughts till i feel that im going to go crazy! just share a few thoughts that are running through my mind:
1) learning how to let go. this is the main and focal point of my thoughts. it is indeed easier said than done, as when you really want to do it, there are certain factors that will prevent you from doing it. i guess it's just a double-edged sword situation now, whereby i'm torn between the 2 extremes=(((
2) i'm getting fatter and fatter and i want to lose weight!

8.10pm
signing off
pcb at 4pm tomorrow

bye~

 

potato signing off 7:49 pm

had a long night last night... went for service, and because of what pastor jeff said and with the thoughts running through my mind, i broke down in church after service=((( it was really very disheartening at that time, and i just could not control my tears, and i just broke down. after service, i had dinner w my sim cg, before going to meet desmond and my 2 angels. timbre was really good; whereby the night at plasma was simply shiok and booze was good! =) after plasma, we went to chinatown to eat the famous porridge, which was really good too! mixed (assorted pig stuff) porridge was delicious! =) after that, chilled till about 6+am then went home...

i really hope that i can do it. and i know that i got to do it. or else, the one to suffer in the end is only myself. it will be very hard. it will be torturing for me. it will be a big obstacle to overcome. and i also do not understand why i can't seem to do it. probably i can't bear to do so.

god, save me.

 

potato signing off 5:16 pm

just came home about 1 hour ago.. feeling kinda high... since 1st May 1pm at downtown east wild wild wet till 2nd May 11pm then reach home. me jo jac yuexing tim went to wild wild wet for a smashing wet time! haha! we enjoyed ourselves and had lots and lots of fun! =))) after that, takeaway kfc for dinner. after dinner, watched a bit of ah long pte ltd, then went off to the new arcade to satisfy my addiction for this new candy scooping machine, whereby with tactics in deciding when to release the cradle to go down to scoop all the various types of candies and release them to the central moving platform whereby the top platform will move forward and backward to push the candies to hit the centre 'launcher' lever which will trigger the jackpot to be activated. if you are normal and luck-less, you will hit '1' which will increase the number of lights in the bar to hit jackpot. '2' means that the lights will go up 2 bars, and '3' means that the lights will go up 3 bars, and lastly, jackpot is to win the prize straight =) the bar is split into 3 parts: A) candies will be pouring down from the top left hand corner, which will result in a small excitement! haha! B) the acrylic surface that supports all the candies will curve upwards, making the candies more compact, and prevent candies from falling off the acrylic platform C) the most exciting and exhilarating part; whereby the bottom half of the platform will move forward more than double the distance it's supposed to travel, and most of the candies will then flood down to the collection point. in order to fully illustrate how addictive this game is to me, i shall showcase the 3 episodes of addiction:-
1) it was after st nic's camp, where we are at amk hub; whereby me, ugly andrew, nurbaya, cherie and treviz (the easterners) went to arcade, cos andrew said he wants to play the candy scooping game. that was the 1st time i was introduced to this game; whereby andrew used $25 to win the top prize, which is this round and black Disney character, and also very nice to hug=) after seeing andrew win the prize and the bag of candies he won, i was very tempted and went to exchange $20 to try my luck. in the end, with the additional $1 help from andrew, i managed to win the prize with $21 only; whereby along the way, i soared to jackpot with the last spin that ended with '3'; whereby i stood up in joy! winning my 1st ever prize! (of course is 1st la, 1st time play this machine mah.. haha!)
2) after dinner at yuexing's birthday chalet, me, hz, horheh, desmond, leisha, and cheryl went to the new arcade of downtown east; whereby i heard they have the candy scooping game there too! i saw this very cute brown pillow that i know you will like, cos it's very very cute=))) i exchanged $30, and got it at my $28 mark. cos i was short of 3 bars to jackpot, so leisha said:"papa a, you can do it! god bless!" and the moment she said that, the spin ended at '3', and won the prize. i was very happy and exhilarated when i won the prize. (hope that you will like it when you get it tomorrow, hope you will not find it too childish) we were relaxing at the cafeteria outside the arcade, then i thought about my sister jo, who was kinda stressed up and vexed this week; thus, i decided to go play the game again, winning the same series, but in her favorite color:green! =) this prize really damn power, cos i already used $20, then i psychoed hz whether he minds sponsoring me $5. he self-inserted the 5 1-dollar coins, and said:"This will be a jackpot! God bless!" the moment the candy hit the 'launcher" lever, the spin ended at JP=jackpot!, and won the prize with only $21! (dunno whether with hz's luck, then jolene got her prize! haha! oops!)
3) today's episode is at suntec city, with jaclyn as my coin depositer and jolene as la-la-dui leader. haha! =) cos i saw a very cute pair of mugs, with pooh bear soft toy and tiger soft toy inside them. i thought of gettin them for my angels, cheryl and leisha=))) it was pretty slow, every increase is only '1'; whereby towards the $28 mark, the spin ended at JP=jackpot!, can you believe it??? haha! it must be mother luck shining on me...
anyway, after these 3 episodes, it's a sign to me to not succumb to this tempatation and addiction; thus, i will put off the next episode to my birthday... haha! =))))) can't wait to do camp next week~~~

 

potato signing off 12:05 am

it was really nice to go out with you again today, since 4th Feb'08. thanks for accompanying me today, and i really appreciate and cherish your company. anyway, guys and gals... i finally bought my own pair of salomon shoes, red and black combination design. it costs $169->$135, which i feel it is really a good buy man! =))))) after buying the shoes, we had very nice and appetizing beef hor fun at the army market, accompanied with super bland sugarcane water! haha! lol! we went to bras brasah complex to look for the book "god's blogs". for those who are believers in christ, i highly recommend this book to buy and read. it is very simple and easy to read; whereby the values and teachings inside are really very valuable and enlightening. those who are interested, can let me know, i don't mind lending to you to read. after that, went to bugis village to buy my $5 white watch, and went bugis junction to get yuexing's birthday present... after that, accompanied her to her job interview for events position; whereby she got it! congrats! (you know what to do hor! hee!) lastly, we went raffles city starbucks to have my venti caramel machiato, which never fails to satisfy. went home, and met desmond at night for supper cum drinks at the usual hang-out place. it was another good end to the night as both of us just relaxed over beer and food =)

after today, i came to realize that i should be able to let go soon... the feeling you give me is purely as a friend, and nothing more than that. probably god feels that we are better off as friends, rather than bf+gf. as the liking decreases, you will still be my soft spot till the day i completely give up =) take care~ and i really really look forward to doing the same camp as you.

thank you god, for showing me the direction to take and what to do.

=)

 

potato signing off 2:31 am