it was indeed a good 2 hour conference conversation. we managed to trash things out and just pour out what each of us has to say. anyway, i feel that after the conversation, i feel that at times, i can be real blunt, without me realizing it at all. and god has just got to drive down the point to me by illustrating 2 incidents of me being blunt: the incident of jaclyn+jolene and the incident of jane.

to jane: i'm really sorry if i sounded blunt to you in the morning. i just want you to know that i really did not mean it, and i really meant it in the joking manner. i know i'm wrong to assume that you know i'm joking, whereby i disregarded your feelings. i'm really sorry and i sincerely seek for your forgiveness.

to jolene: i'm very sorry for making use of you, and i really deeply regret for doing so; cos at times, i would not realize it myself. besides that, i really want you to know that to me, you are not a lousy instructor, cos i had never ever thought of you as one. in addition, please do not think you are the cause of what happened, cos you are only a very small contributing factor. this kind of relationship stuff needs mutual efforts de, so outside parties will not matter. but, still thanks a lot for being there for me when i need someone, and if there are times i offended you, i seek your apologies.

to jaclyn: thanks for sharing how you feel to me. in fact, i should thank you instead. for the past few days, i was in a state of confusion, really very unsure of what i should do next. i was kinda expecting a closure from you soon, but i did not expect it will come so soon. however, you need not worry, i will be professional enough to put aside my personal stuff, and concentrate fully on my school work and my upcoming final exams. one last thing -> you can tell me to stop trying, but it will be kinda hard for me to give up on you, cos that needs time, hope you will understand.

please take good care of yourself.
drink lots of water since you are coughing kinda badly.
load more sea cucumber cough mixture to your throat.
then you will be fine.
a 'zao sia'(lose-voice) jaclyn is funny =)

 

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