today i had my very 1st cg with my sim-hope church friends... although it was a bit long, it was indeed an eye-opener for me and a very enlightening experience for me =) i really hold my cg leader, carrie, in utmost admiration as she's really very knowledgeable with god's teaching and values, and she is ever-patient with me as she knows i'm a new believer. i totally enjoyed myself at praise and worship today during cg, and i'm looking forward to my next cg =)))

dear lord... please bless my remaining sisters and brother junyao all the best in their upcoming exams... give them strength, wisdom, knowledge, and whatever else they need to get through this exam phase... i know you will be there for them as you were there for me last week... bless them with all the good luck that they will pass their exams with flying colors~ in most precious name of jesus we pray, amen! =)))))

this is dedicated to my tu mei aka disciple... you need not feel that you are a lousy instructor, cos how do you define the word 'lousy'? if your campers never cry, means you are lousy? and even if your campers did cry, it does not mean that you are zai. therefore, personally, i feel that in order to be a zai instructor, one must first have self-confidence, which is very essential. it's not about how many camps you do, but whether after every camp, the lessons and values you learn, do you put it into good use in the next camp. in addition, i feel that as newbies, you all need not feel inferior as compared to the lao jiaos, as the lao jiaos were newbies too. instead of feeling inferior, you should look up to the lao jiaos as role models, and learn all the good things (not the bad things hor!) from there, you will slowly improve, and one day, you will be the laojiao teaching the newbies the ropes of being a zai instructor =)))

P A S S I O N: Camps!!! here i come~~~

 

potato signing off 1:32 am

sunday 27/4
today is really a very shiok and fun day! met 2 of my angels, C and L, to go wild wild wet together! got a super good tan and enjoyed ourselves to the maximum man! after that, had the famous chicken rice at downtown east food court... angel L went to meet her **, while me and angel C went to cineleisure to watch harold and kumar 2. it is a f****** funny movie, and i rate it 10/10!!! it is a definite must-watch comedy for all, especially if you had watched harold and kumar 1 before. after the movie, we went to xin wang hk cafe (wth! again?!?!) for late dinner cum early supper, consisting of: seafood hor fun+french toast with peanut butter+orgasmic muah chee+iced soya milk+iced milk tea = satisfying and shiok!!! =)
looking forward to tomorrow, as i'm going to get my salomon shoes!!! =))) hope i can get a pair that i like, although kelvin phua already got the one that i initially wanted...

to angel L: i know probably you are thinking that you are hanging out less with me and angel C because of **, but you really need not worry about that. cos me and angel C are really very very happy for you as you had found someone you like and the feeling is mutual also. in addition, it is indeed hard to strike a good balance between friends and bgr; thus, you just got to sacrifice one of them. we can still hang out like last time, but not so frequent; however, as the saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder, so like that, we will appreciate one another's company more =)))

to angel C: i really got to thank god for you. you are indeed a friend who is always (more or less, haha!) there for me when i need someone; and due to our similar horoscopes and small (2 only hor!) age gap, we can click really well and have lots of fun together! =) hope you liked the 2 cartigans you got from stitch and i'm looking forward to do camps with you soon!

 

potato signing off 12:09 am

i'm really tired.
=(

 

potato signing off 12:30 am

just finished highlighting my com 125 notes... dunno why? dun hav the mood to study le... or lost the motivation to continue striving forward till thur... probably is the double concoction of com 242 and com 443, which kinda stretched my brain cells to the maximum... therefore, this upcoming 2 full months of holidays is really a well-deserved break for me, and i'm going to take full advantage of the holidays to chiong camps!~! =)

tired =(((

 

potato signing off 2:06 am

it was pretty hardcore mugging for the past few days... kinda shagged out from all the mugging and stress... really cannot wait for thursday to come...

com 242 paper was pretty ok; whereby i found it easier than mid-term, probably i prepared more for final as compared to mid-term(which i studied the night before, haha!)... was really really touched and encouraged when i received smses from junyao+jesline+leisha, giving me the 'invisible' strength and wisdom to get through the paper. thanks a lot peeps! god bless! =) anyway, after the exam, pretty sherry fetched me and shirley to geylang's "wan dou sek", a super good place for dim sum (24hr hor!!)... we ordered fried chicken wings+fried zhu chang fen+har gao+siew mai+fried carrot cake+fu chou mian -> super satisfying! haha! shiok like dunno what sia! lol =)

com 443 paper was kinda a pain in the ass... imagine studying 9 chapters, whereby our beloved lecturer did not really teach any of the 9 chapters, so it feels like studying an advertising manual; whereby after reading it, we are supposed to be able to be a practitioner of advertising... haha! the 'best' part was that bob told me yesterday after com 242 paper that com 443 paper will be much more tough and will be a killer! that caused me to pia like crazy last night, typing notes till 4am!!! (but did not manage to finish typing all 9 chapters, managed to finish 6 chapters only) and i woke up at 10am to finish the last 3 chapters, then made my way to school... surprisingly, the paper was considered ok, with only a few tricky questions; whereby the rest were pretty straightforward, and finished the paper within half an hour. hope this paper can get me an a! same for com 242 also! hee;) (very greedy hor!) guess what?! i received smses of encouragement from namely: junyao+kezia+maurice+leisha~ i really feel very very encouraged and can feel the 'invisible' strength that allowed me to get through the paper; therefore, thanks lord for always being there for me, giving me wisdom and strength to get through this exam phase! =)

now left with com 215 on thursday... dun really have the mood to study le, probably is complacency, or just that i'm too tired le... =( i just got to tell myself to press on and after thursday, i will be free! just give you guys a sneak peak of my post-exam activities planned till this sunday: -
thursday 24/4: go to ian's clementi primary school campfire(jbac)
friday 25/4: go to veron's st nic girls school campfire(sji)
saturday 26/4: church(if i'm not too tired)+dinner with the army male instructors(pending)
sunday 27/4: wild wild wet with my 2 angels

now i shall slowly take out my com 125 notes and start reading... haha! lord, give me strength! =)

is there really no affinity between us? i was watching ah wang(7pm on channel 8), then ah wang's mum said this: "probably for now, she is together with ah wang because of compassion towards him; but who knows in the future, probably she really shares an affinity with ah wang" from all the thoughts and what you said to me, it is a definite and obvious sign for me to give up on you, but i dunno why, i just can't bring myself to do it. haiz =( anyway, need not worry... i will not hinder you in any way, and i promise you that i will try my very best to give up on you and get out of your life. it will be hard, but i think this is the only solution. anyway, i know you are still feeling unwell, so please take care of yourself and rest more, so i will see my disciple in action this coming friday's campfire! =)

dear lord... please bless her with good health, and also with the strength and wisdom to do a marvelous job at st nic's this coming thur-sat. in jesus's name we pray, amen! =)

 

potato signing off 8:28 pm

just finished my com242 paper today, it was pretty manageable, i think. hope can score a decent grade for this module. thanks to junyao+jesline+leisha for your prayer smses in the morning, they really encouraged me a lot, and gave me 'invisible' wisdom and strength to overcome the paper. really appreciate your thoughtfulness! =)

really enjoyed the very short chat on the phone last night... it was really nice to hear your voice (a bit cui though) again after a week... your words of encouragement just made me stronger, and telling myself to perservere on and score good grades =) anyway, i gave a very good thought last night... i really do not want the r/s between us to turn sour or ugly, cos i still cherish you a lot as a friend, and to be precise, a very special friend to me. please do not say it's your fault, as in r/s, there's no right and wrong. there is seriously no point in pointing the finger at whoever, but more of clearing things up properly, and thereby ending on a good note. in this way, both of us can still be very good friends, and if possible, a special best friend r/s. i'm really looking forward to doing camps with you again, cos i really miss the good and fond memories we had together =) please take good care of yourself these few days, as you going to do camp again this thur. look forward to seeing you on fri night den! =)

back to my nap till dinner
after dinner, chiong till i drop
signing off,
instructor potato

lord, please bless her with good health so that she can be up and energized for this thur's camp. amen! =)

 

potato signing off 2:40 pm

saturday 19/4 4am is an unforgettable date and event, but i'm really glad that you are feeling much better and fine le.. just know that i will always be here for you can le, cos at times, there is a certain limit that one can tolerate. remember this: there is no such thing as fairness in this world, and the more you compare, the more miserable you will become. instead of wallowing because of the shortcomings and flaws you experience, take full advantage of them, overtake them, and tell them you are stronger, then everything will be fine. =)

i'm studying at the airport now. sunday 20/4 6.13pm. have been studying here since 11am, sitted comfortably at the corner of t2 starbucks, drinking my favorite caramel frapp =) done with studying the com242 chapters once; whereby later going home to read through bob's notes and my own notes, then zzz! i hope should be sufficient and enough for me to get through tomorrow's com242 paper =) now typing the 5th chapter of the 9 chapters for com442 final exam, seems like a never-ending process man! argh!!! lord! give me strength and wisdom and knowledge and photgraphic memory, so i can recall what i had studied and 'vomit' everything out during the exam. haha! am i too greedy lord? lol! but that's what junyao and jesline taught me, just pray, cos it's free! hee;)

dear lord... i know you have always been beside me, supporting me, granting me wisdom and knowledge and strength to get over this exam phase. i also know that my sim cg friends are also praying hard for me to do well, and it is really very encouraging and motivating. i'm trying my best to stay focused, as i know myself too well, cos if i'm not focused, i will not be able to do well in this exams. i have tried my very best to hold back all my feelings and emotions till thursday 24/4 then think about it. i know i will be able to focused enough to get through the remaining 4 days =) in jesus's name we pray, amen!

i will do my best, while god will do the rest

i still miss you a lot, and you are in my prayers everyday =)

 

potato signing off 6:09 pm

i may seem like a happy-go-lucky person to all, but at times, i can't really take pranks/jokes. you may perceive it as a prank/joke, but to me, it's not. especially when the prank/joke concerns something that is rather sensitive, so please do not do that again. you may say i don't have a sense of humor, or i take things too seriously, i'm just being concerned for feeling this way. besides, you can say i'm being too over-sensitive or over-protective, which i do not deny. anyway, just wanna say... it's your own personal social life, so you need not tell me what you did, cos i have absolutely no say over what you do. just be street-smart and take good care of yourself.

it's the 5th day already...
haiz =(

 

potato signing off 10:19 pm

tuesday 15/4
had advertising class in the morning; whereby after that, went to find jolene to chill out before her pcb. i drove from sch to upper serangoon north to pick jolene up, then go to tampines to pick up cheryl to go for pcb (she faked sick,cos she's too lazy to go pcb!) when they are having pcb for andrew's maha bohdi camp, i did my com242 notes in office! haha! =) after the pcb, we went to hougang central for dinner, as jolene got to teach tuition around the area. we had zi char (cos cheryl says that must always have a good meal the night before camp) at kopitiam. we had cereal prawns, sambal sotong, sambal kangkong, fu rong egg, salted vegetable tou fu soup, hot plate bean curd = SATISFYING! =) after dinner, walked around in hougang mall; whereby we ended up sitting in long john's for drinks.
p.s. thank you leisha for the green tea air freshener, it will remind me of you when i'm driving =)
wednesday 16/4
had com242 bonus presentation today, and i was the 1st to present! managed to pull it off and after class, special thanks to alvin (subaru forester) for sending me, shirley and sherry to paya lebar mrt! =) had macs cos shirley "er dao yao si le".. lol! after macs, went to coffee bean to study. after studying, went to buy ginseng chrysanthemum tea for cheryl cos she's down with fever and did not do maha bohdi camp in the end. went over to her place and passed the tea to her mum, cos someone too tired and cui ("shi cui de lor"..) to come out of her room to say hi to me.
thursday 17/4
had the last advertising class today. bob said that all of us deserve an a for this module, as long as we don't screw up our final exam next week. let's hope he honors his words.. after class, hitched a ride from vicky to go back to the east. after reaching the east, went to find shirley to chit-chat a while before going home. reached home at around 2; whereby i KOed at 4pm sharp. den at about 6pm, cheryl called me to tell me that she and leisha is reaching my house in 5min time. i was like wth! cos i was simply enjoying my nap, and they came to spoil it. however, i still feel very appreciative and thankful that they came to find me as i really need a breather from the studying, especially them being my 2 angels always there for me, it was indeed a recharging session with them. thank you cheryl and leisha, my 2 beloved angels sent by god to me, always being there for me! =)
friday 18/4
met up with my church friends to study at the new terminal 3! exciting man! 1st time going there... anyway, cannot be considered as met up, cos i'm still at the airport now, typing this blog post, taking a break from studying! hee;) will update what happened today when i reach home later den! =)

how's was the back-to-back camp? fun? tiring? anyway, really missed you a lot, and i really wanted to sms you, but i decided not to cos i scared i will bother you. just hope that you enjoyed yourself and rest well k? cos i believed that you had the strength to get over this back-to-back, cos you were in my prayers every night before i sleep =)

 

potato signing off 1:15 pm

monday 14/4
today was really nice! skipped class, cos really don't have mood to go school because of what happened last night. anyway, went kovan heartland mall to meet jolene for lunch =) we went xin wan hk cafe (again?!?!) for dim sum feast; whereby we were so full till almost cannot walk out of the cafe le.. haha! since jolene cycled to kovan, so i suggested cycling back to her place, with her on the bike! we were like cycling, with a heavy downpour. we were like laughing and screaming, haha! really like elder brother fetching younger sister on the bike.. lol! after about 30min, we managed to reach her place safe and sound, but wet and dirty. haha! i stayed at her place to do my com242 notes till about 4pm, then i msned cheryl, asking her what's the plan for the night? then she kinda give me the attitude saying that she's going out with her friends, then she signed out of msn. i was like ... in the end, i found out that she cooked something for me to cheer me up, but i never go down, so she kinda pissed with me. in the end, i chiong-ed to the nearest mart to buy 3 pocky strawberry (cheryl's fav) and cabbed down to her place. reached her place, saw a 'chao-bin' cheryl at her study table. apologized profusely to her and gave her the pocky strawberry, then she finally smiled =))) after that, proceeeded to finish up my com242 notes, while cheryl helped me with my facebook presentation. watched tv from 7-8pm and 9-10pm. and went home.

a few shout-outs to make!

cheryl. thanks for always being there for me! i really appreciate it a lot! =)

leisha. thanks for always being there for me! i really appreciate it a lot! =)

desmond. thanks bro for always being there for me! i really appreciate it a lot! cheer up k? if i can do it, i believe you can do it too!

jolene. thanks for the company today. hope that god will give you the wisdom and show you the direction to take with regards to you-know-who.

jaclyn. take care at camp! =)

it was a lousy night last night. but after thinking about it for the entire night, it kinda shone upon me that i should just let go and give up. although we cannot be lovers, we can still be friends. take care.

=)

 

potato signing off 12:43 am

courtesy of cheryl deliah lio =)))))

 

potato signing off 8:23 pm

 

potato signing off 6:03 pm

thursday 10/4
nothing much happened.. but weisi from my com300 group, who was the coordinator (leader) of the group, treated us to cheese cakes from coffee bean and tea leaf. thanks a lot weisi! that's very sweet and nice of you =)

friday 11/4
stayed at home to complete my com443 advertising reflection papers: 1 for the agency's review and the other 1 for the movie "atonement". after completing, went to cheryl's place with leisha; whereby desmond joined us after that. we had bubble tea and kfc, chit-chatted a lot and talk-cocked and bitched! haha! it was really nice chilling out with nice and good frens =)

saturday 12/4
met cheryl and leisha for movie, "run papa run". it was very nice and heartwarming, especially the daughter of louis khoo, who is super duper cute! haha! the movie is a very good reminder to the youngsters to not join gangs, as it is a no-way-out option. after the movie, went for church service. the songs they sang were really nice, and after that, it was my favorite pastor, pastor jeff! he's like the man of all men man! haha! his preaching is always so entertaining and funny! after service, me and my 2 hungry angels (leisha and cheryl) went down to the 1st floor wan ton noodle stall for dinner. each of us ate 1 big bowl of wan ton noodle and shared a plate of fried wan ton. it was simply satisfying man! =) after dinner, we went for dessert at xin wang cine. we ordered the mango dessert (standard de!)+orgasmic muah chee (according to potato!)+almond cream with tang yuan (cheryl's fav), and had a super lol session when we decided to take 2sec timed self-shots of the 3 of us! =) it was super duper funny la! after that, went spinnelli's for coffee and chill-out, whereby desmond came to join us. chit-chatted for a while before heading home. on the bus ride home, i suddenly have craving for beer, so me and desmond went to the usual 24hr hang-out place to drink beer and had wu xiang for supper! lol! to sum today up! super-duper-licious satisfying!!! =)

it was really nice to see you today after church today, after 4 days of absence. i bet your past 4 days must had been very fulfilling and fun, catching up with friends and all. anyway, just wanna say.. since you are doing back-to-back camps next week, and i know this will sound damn naggy again. but please take good care of yourself in camp k? i know my strepsils is kinda negligible, but i hope it will come to good use if you happen to kana sore throat (touch wood!)
dear lord.. please bless jaclyn with strength, confidence, wisdom, good health for this upcoming 5d4n camp, and make sure that if she encounters difficulties with her campers/teacher-in-charge, she will be able to overcome them. i know lord, you love me as much as you love jaclyn, so please bless her and in jesus's name we pray.. amen! =)

i will miss you for the next 5d4n
while i'm having 'fun' with my books
=)

 

potato signing off 1:43 am

sunday 6/4
woke up at 2pm, due to coming home at 6am the day before from prawning. switched on my laptop and decided to start doing my research paper from scratch; whereby i thought that i could finish the paper within a few hours, that's the reason why i pushed the doing of the research paper till today then do, BUT! in the end, i found out that i only finished the paper at 3.30am (monday 7/4)! took like almost 12 hours (minus off dinner) to complete the paper, while msn chatting with a special someone, which made my doing of research paper not so boring and tiring =)

monday 7/4
finally handed up the research paper draft, hope that it can get at least a b! after class, went over to find cheryl for dinner. we had a very nice chat, and i'm really very thankful to God for letting me know cheryl, someone who is always there for me when i need someone; therefore, thank you cheryl! your actions and words will always touch me in a very special way, and i really appreciate it a lot! =)

tuesday 8/4
had the final com300 presentation, hope mr bob likes it and gives us a good grade. after class, went to pick up cheryl from clementi mrt station, then made our way down to ha office. cheryl went for her tanglin sec pcb, while i met up with jeremy tang for a short chat+discussion. as this coming break will be a full 2months break for me; thus, i hope i can maximise these 2months with learning the behind-the-scene camp prep and the paperwork involved =) after that, went off to the glass house fish n co to meet up with the instructors for the farewell party for the male instructors going into army. 50 instructors turned up man! the total bill was almost $900! haha! anyway, just wanna say to the male instructors going in: take good care of yourself, watch your backs, don't try to act hero cos hero always die first, and make your 2 years the most fulfilling one! =) God bless!

wednesday 9/4
my parents fetched me to school today; whereby before that, we went to pump petrol (cos yesterday whacked the accelerator as if petrol is free like that! haha!) can you believe it? the 92 petrol, which is only $1.85 last time, is $2.05 now!!! super crazily expensive man! now must really drive with consideration and not rev the accelerator for no reason le. haha! after class, went to meet my 2 church mentors: namely jesline and junyao! we met up at raffles city starbucks and had a very nice chat and both of them shared the word of god->bible to me. it was really a very enriching and enlightening chat with them, and it strengthened my faith in god.

really happy that you really liked the jacket=) hope that the jacket can keep you warm when it's raining in camps, or during a cold weather. i shall pray hard for god to bless you with strength and confidence for next week's camp! =) take care~

 

potato signing off 8:54 pm

just reached home at 6am. haha! went prawning with the instructors after church service. today was supposed to go tanning with cheryl and leisha, but in the end, they were too tired to even wake up by 11am! especially for cheryl, she pangsehed me twice already! so cheryl.. you know what to do hor! haha! =) thus, in the end, met desmond at ps starbucks for coffee, then went to brewerkz for beer again (we were there on thursday too!). we had 1 jug+2 cups of beer+buffalo wings, which is satisfying for a hot afternoon! after that, went to church for service. the pastors shared about 'how to love your neighbor', which was very enlightening for me. after that, met jaclyn and jolene at cine hk cafe for dinner; whereby after that, bumped into the instructors and all of us went off to bishan for prawning -> explaining why i reached home at 6am, but anyway, thanks a lot andrew bro for fetching all of us including me home! you are the best man! =)

definition of love

• it is not a fair exchange
• it is not logical
• it is not subjected to traditions
• it is an irrational love
• it is scandalous love

real love perserveres. real love does not give up hope. real love goes extra mile. real love does not give excuses.

we do not love and serve out of conveniences. we love despite our personal inconveniences.

today's service was about 'love'; whereby the idea of 'love your neighbor despite personal differences' and 'love your neighbor despite personal indifferences'. it really made me ponder over my current relationship with someone... should i give up or just hang on? although negative signs are telling me to give up, but...

it's really not easy to let go.
it will take some time.
god please help me.

 

potato signing off 6:20 am

woke up feeling refreshed, but with a slight tinge of 'yi yi bu she' feeling. still thinking about last night's conversation.. succeeded in editing the powerpoint presentation for com300. after that, went off to find cheryl and helped her in the tabulation of ev forms. (16grpsX19pple = crazy!) after that, went off to meet my church friends to celebrate jesline's 21st birthday. i had chosen to be in the food committee; thus, i was tasked with 2 others to buy 21 kinds of food for jesline =) just to name the 21 items: kfc cheese fries, muah chee, peanut pancake, pudding, apple juice drink, tom yum soup, fish and chips, carrot cake, cream puffs, fishballs, fried rice, grilled chicken on a stick, chicken sausage, carbonara, powerpuff girls cake, mac ice-cream cone, soup spoon mushroom soup, xxl chicken cutlet, potato salad and muffin (can't believe my 23-year old memory never fails me, haha!) jesline also played a game of q and a, whereby we had to raise up yes/no cards to her questions. after that, we had a sharing session of how we feel towards jesline, and for that, i really must shout a loud thank-you to jesline! for all the stuff she had done for me, and being ever patient with showing me how to get closer to god. thank you jesline and thank you god for jesline! =)


anyway, cheryl sent me the gemini horoscope for today...

The Bottom Line
Just when you'd about given up hope for someone, they'll come through for you today.
In Detail
Just when you thought you had given up hope that that certain someone would ever notice you, today brings some promising attention. Maybe you've been waiting for your boss to praise all of your hard work. Maybe you've been hoping that the teacher would see how involved you been in discussions. Perhaps you're wondering when on earth that cutie will give you the time of day. Whoever has been testing your patience will finally come to their senses and see you for who you are, today.

i wonder how true the above horoscope is...
i just wonder...

 

potato signing off 12:53 am

it was indeed a good 2 hour conference conversation. we managed to trash things out and just pour out what each of us has to say. anyway, i feel that after the conversation, i feel that at times, i can be real blunt, without me realizing it at all. and god has just got to drive down the point to me by illustrating 2 incidents of me being blunt: the incident of jaclyn+jolene and the incident of jane.

to jane: i'm really sorry if i sounded blunt to you in the morning. i just want you to know that i really did not mean it, and i really meant it in the joking manner. i know i'm wrong to assume that you know i'm joking, whereby i disregarded your feelings. i'm really sorry and i sincerely seek for your forgiveness.

to jolene: i'm very sorry for making use of you, and i really deeply regret for doing so; cos at times, i would not realize it myself. besides that, i really want you to know that to me, you are not a lousy instructor, cos i had never ever thought of you as one. in addition, please do not think you are the cause of what happened, cos you are only a very small contributing factor. this kind of relationship stuff needs mutual efforts de, so outside parties will not matter. but, still thanks a lot for being there for me when i need someone, and if there are times i offended you, i seek your apologies.

to jaclyn: thanks for sharing how you feel to me. in fact, i should thank you instead. for the past few days, i was in a state of confusion, really very unsure of what i should do next. i was kinda expecting a closure from you soon, but i did not expect it will come so soon. however, you need not worry, i will be professional enough to put aside my personal stuff, and concentrate fully on my school work and my upcoming final exams. one last thing -> you can tell me to stop trying, but it will be kinda hard for me to give up on you, cos that needs time, hope you will understand.

please take good care of yourself.
drink lots of water since you are coughing kinda badly.
load more sea cucumber cough mixture to your throat.
then you will be fine.
a 'zao sia'(lose-voice) jaclyn is funny =)

 

potato signing off 1:10 am

just reached home from school.. kinda moodless in a way. got to edit and vet the powerpoint presentation for com300 by tonight. anyway, this blog post is dedicated to 2 girls who are special to me and others:

others
to whoever who is pissed or angry or irritated with the way i'm treating jaclyn, i apologize. i know at times, things that i do, will not be to the liking of others; but what i can confidently say is whatever i had done for her, is purely from my heart.

jolene
since east view camp, i've always treated you as my own younger sister; whereby i hope you also treat me as your own elder brother also. anyway, i want to say sorry to you for making use of you to get close to jaclyn and to get information about her from you. at times, i admit and regret that i do not take your feelings into consideration, and due to your character and nature, you seldom say no to me. therefore, i'm so sorry again for causing you unnecessary trouble and you have my word that i will never come and ask you anything about jaclyn. however, i sincerely and pray that the both of us can stay as good friends, just like brother and sister =)
(p.s. i hope the glutton's bay makan session can have episode 2)

jaclyn
i'm very very very sorry if knowing me caused you any unnecessary trouble or confusion. i did not mean to, and i agree with you that at times, i may just piss people off with my actions, even without me realizing it. with regards to the closure you gave me about 3 hours ago, i kinda expect it coming already, but did not expect it to be so soon. i thought of asking you after my last final exam paper ends on 24 Apr, but i think now don't need wait till then le. what i got to say is please take good care of yourself next time when doing camps, take care of yourself in the future university you are going to, and all the best in everything you do in life! do not worry, i will pray hard for you, which i always do before every meal and before i sleep =)

ever since being a christian, i kinda found a new direction in life. thanks to jolene and jaclyn for introducing Jesus to me, which really made my life much better =) to tell the truth, i'm really not feeling good now, especially at this period of time when my final exams are coming, but oh wells.. i just got to be professional enough, not to let my personal stuff affect my school work. at least for now, i need not think so much and concentrate fully on my upcoming exams.

just a small shout-out to jolene and jaclyn... i really look forward to be able to do camps with the both of you again, just like east view camp. i hope that you 2 will still want to be my friends, hang out and have fun; whereby if you all do not want to, i bet that will feel worse than being rejected, cos to me, friends is very important and essential to me.

it will be hard to let go..
but it's ok..
potato will be strong enough to get through this..
have a little faith..
you can do it.

 

potato signing off 3:32 pm

seems like the closure came earlier than i thought it will be. the negative feeling just gets stronger and stronger every day. at times i wonder, does preserverence really work? apparently, the saying 'nice guys finish last' applies to me again.

hope this closure will not affect my upcoming final exams. =(

 

potato signing off 12:35 pm

2nd April'08
met desmond after class, went for an early dinner+Brewerkz+movie 'untraceable'. brewerkz was damn good! both of us drank 3 jugs, and we got rather high! haha! 'untraceable' was ok only, although i was really attracted by the trailer.
P.S. desmond bro.. have a little faith! what's meant for you is meant for you.. and preservere! =)

3rd April'08
finally! the print ad+tvc+radio are all done! hope bob can appreciate the hard work put in by my group and give us the desired grade. next up! com242 research paper draft due next mon =(

hope that you are feeling better now..

 

potato signing off 12:15 pm

i had decided to drop my marketing minor, because of 3 reasons:
1) i find having a marketing minor is pretty redundant
2) i can have a longer holiday
3) therefore, i can do more camps! =)
therefore, now my upcoming holiday is changed from 24Apr-19May -> 24Apr-29June!~! i foresee many camps to be done, in CHA and hopefully, AK. it's not that i'm sick of doing CHA camps, it's just that i really want to experiment a different camp company, and see how they run their camps.

the past 3 days you were at camp, i pondered over many issues. one of the issue i pondered upon is the communication between you and me. it's true that most of the times, communication between you and me is one-sided, which can be tiring at times for me. but anyway, as i said in the email to you, i totally understand what you are going through now and what you really need now is time and space, which is 2 things i will definitely give you =) in addition, i'm so looking forward to doing camps with you again, ever since east view sec 3 camp. it's already close to 3 months, whereby it will be 4 months when my exams are over. therefore, i really hope that by the time my holidays start, you will still be doing camps, and the best thing that can ever happen to me is to be able to do camps with you =)

we may not be together now, who knows what the future holds ay, be it friend or girlfriend, i will still treat you as someone that's very dear to me ay =)

 

potato signing off 11:06 am

sunday 30/3
the entire day spent at sarah mei's place to do the advertising assignments: print and radio and tv ads. abby is really the WOMAN man! her talent in photoshop, sound and video editing is super zai! and i think if nexus don't have her, we cannot connect! lol! anyway, one of the radio ads is my voice, hope it will turn out well too! =) not to forget, met leisha and cheryl for dinner cum supper at wang jiao cha chan ting; whereby we really had a feast man! haha! and it was really nice chit-chatting and laughing our heads off! =)

monday 31/3
went to jane's place to rehearse for the presentation of the print ad on tuesday. her mum is really nice enough to cook dinner for us, so thank you auntie! =)

tuesday 1/4
so thankful that my mum agreed to lend me the car, because i got to reach school by 7.45am. went to pick up abby before going to school. bought macs breakfast before going school, tried mcgiggle, which is the same as sausage mcmuffin but replace the bread with hotcake, NICE!~ =) the presentation turned out pretty well, and abby managed to peep at bob's results for our presentation=A! =) hope that this coming thursday's radio and tv ads will turn out well too!

how's camp? fun or not? are you feeling better already? hope the stuff i asked treviz to pass to you aid you a bit in camp.. look forward to seeing you in church this sat! =)

i miss you

 

potato signing off 12:13 pm